Hard Knocks Education
I ignored the neon warning signs because every other area was perfect, and so GD much potential for ‘happily ever after’. I was probably mis-reading everything anyway - I mean everything else was so good, I had to be wrong. And I’ve been there before - when it wasn’t good, and learning the signs, well that’s an education you sure as hell don’t forget. Besides, I’m smarter now, I think more of myself - know I deserve better.
right?
yeh right.
so fast -less than a second. Standing there, then like a shot - feels like your chin slammed into your spine and your ears ring like a siren. Hasn’t changed much, my reaction - I wonder if it’s lights out or will my eyes open on cue? Taste of blood cues them open, and makes me gag every time.
I’m embarrassed more than anything - that I let the good suck me into something so obviously not good. Stupid stupid stupid.
the only thing worse than the taste of blood is the taste of bone.
fuck. never tasted bone.
I’d forgotten what it feels like to catch one so hard it makes your fucking ears ring. Guess it’s better it happened now verses later and deeper in.
Not stupid maybe a little foolish.